Saturday, February 05, 2011

You're still whispering in my ear:
"Breathe. Just keep breathing."

You told me that just
as I felt as though all
my internal organs were being
torn out of my body
by your hands
hands I never got to hold

And for a time I had
to will myself to inhale
and exhale
to keep going
out of the fear of God
but also
because I could not bear
to break your heart again

And now
i am okay
I am learning to leave
my hands and my heart unclosed

But I still hear you

And it makes my chest
tighten like it did so long ago

Because all it does is remind me
how much you loved me

And how much I still love you